I finished my level one training tuesday through friday this week. It was very informative and makes me both excited and nervous to be teaching all the level ones this coming year. Teaching Sunrise this past year was great, and I fully believe that I will always be teaching Sunrise so long as I am teaching MYC. But, it is also very exciting to begin teaching the same things that I did as a child...learning the MYC critters from a teacher's perspective was special, and I can't wait to pass along the fun and joy of it to my students. And here's my plug out to anyone reading this with children ages 2-8-go to the MYC website and click Find a Teacher-there are teachers all across Canada and part of the United States as well as in New Zealand, Singapore, Hong Kong (I think) Malaysia, South Korea and I think Japan. In my opinion, it is simply THE BEST program out there for teaching young children both keyboard and other essential skills because it is FUN, adaptive, includes many different techniques, and covers SO MUCH. (and now I stop the advertisement!)
I'm also very excited because very soon I will be the proud owner of a new (to me) flute, a Gosman (spelling?) flute. I haven't had a new instrument since I was 14, so almost 7 years. I wasn't even taking flute lessons back then, just playing in the grade nine band at school. A picture will be posted once I've actually become the owner. I am REALLY excited to get to practice with it though! And just to explore how my skill as a player will be able to develop with this new instrument.
Knowing so much about mental health, I've come to realize that at times, I can be somewhat agoraphobic. Some days I am practically in my room for 24 hours or more straight, only coming out for the washroom, and to make more tea, maybe get a nectarine or granola bar. I sometimes find it very hard to make phone calls, which leads me to putting them off and putting them off (and in some ways this posting is putting off one right now, I really should phone the prospective MYC parent I am meeting tomorrow to make sure they're still on for it). Staying hidden in my room is safe, but limiting. I really do enjoy the things (and yes, I'm saying enjoy, that is a step for me, acknowledging that) that I do outside of this safe haven, but it is sometimes, well, scary. This is actually something somewhat new, almost going back to my childhood shyness. I thought I'd gotten rid of it in my early adolesence, between 10-12 years of age, but in the past year or so, some of it seems to be coming back to bite me. I guess it's a form of social anxiety disorder, but I am not wanting it diagnosed as such. To be honest, feeling like I'm carrying around the weight of so many diagnoses is hard. Keeping things secret is hard, but letting things out into the open is even harder. But, when I look at things, a few years down the road, I DO want to think of myself by a different set of acronyms, instead of OCD, GAD, MDD, EDNOS, I want to think of myself by the titles that others will know me by...the ones that will show up on my business card...B.Mus, A.R.C.T, MYCC, RMT, CCA, maybe even M.Mus, or B.A as well. The things that people see on the outside, that is what I want to see on the inside.
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